Screen time

[whitewriter]

I was using a paper diary daily until these last few weeks, now that I keep the light off all night and focus on sleep sleep sleep and a schedule is a real possibility, and I know this kid so well now.... This journal seems like a better place for random thoughts too deep to put in a bujo..



Main thing of today. I dusted the bedrooms but due to procrastination started too late. Wendy's room wasnt done yet and Pete had identified she was ready for bed. So he took her to the done bedroom and popped on the screen that is utube while I fixed hers. And i got the shits. U made the kid happy with the screen candy that is utube and putting her down for bed she screamed the room done. I asked him is this because U gave her utube and then took it away? He said maybe.

I hope he felt guilty.

He offered and I accepted for him to make her sleep. He had to redo it twice before I boobed her at 20:00
At 21:00 I had dinner and watched her resettle herself in the cot before I went to bed myself at 21:30.

We have been cosleeping after midnight the last few nights which is why I rearranged the bedroom to make it safer and less likely that she will roll off the bed at night.

Pete detailed this morning that he got the shits cause I interrupted his work at 6am to help me with the kid.

I wanted to say well.
I never get angry when she needs me.
I am always there for her. No matter what. No matter what I'm doing. She's my baby.
And I'm her mother and main food source. And magical comfort boobs available 24/7.
I spent the night on call with her and he sleeps amazing not hearing any of the night hell. No fears you will roll on your own kid who wont sleep anywhere except your bed.

But I bit my tongue.

I don't know why.