Just. I don't even want to think.
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whitewriterSo I'm going to write this mindless post and hope it makes me feel better.
What's your favourite way to spend a weekend
Hum. This has changed over time.
When I was 20 I'd say this:
1. work a 12 hour shift on Saturday
2. DB race on the Sunday
or
an away DB race with pals, take the whole weekend off.
In my 30s I'd say this:
Hang out with the kids and Pete doing whatever. Watch a movie at home, go to the park and get some takeaway chippies or burger or whatever.
Do I enjoy what I do for a living
Yes and no.
I studied very hard in my science degree to see that it would likely get me nowhere in Australia without a Phd, which i would have been unfunded with and would also have to move overseas to get any sort of job related to what I worked/studied. So I pivoted to clinical work and chose nursing where I studied a moderate amount but worked very hard and did a lot of jobs trying to get a lot of experience because I thought that doing that would be more useful than book work (which I think is true, because nursing is like "learning common sense" which is hard to get from a page). I worked Assistant nurse roles at like, 3 or 4 hospitals. Sometimes, my day would be like this:
1. uni classes 11am til 4pm
2. dragon boat 6-7pm
3. shift at hospital 10-7am
go home and crash. Kid you not.
Now. 12 years later, I feel like I am mostly clinically competent but that the actual mental labour of the job wears me down. Evidence says one thing, but in practice we do it a different way. whats best for the patient? what's best for the woman. What is their experience of healthcare? Are we actually fixing anything?!
Don't think about it too hard, if you do your work in the moment, you help someone in some small way in JUST THAT MOMENT. Because there is very little continuity of care in midwifery and in nursing, if you work part time to prioritise family its the same.
It is a lot better if your full time in either profession to be hoonest. So Actually work would be more enjoyable if I did more hours. But currently I've chosen to prioritise my girls so. That's just how that goes.
What's a book you'd reccomend? I really enjoyed that one about the defector from North Korea, who now lives in NYC. That was eye opening.
In Order to Live: A North Korean Girl's Journey to Freedom
What's your dream job I got to my dream job really quick in my 20s (maybe partially because I looked so good on paper, science degree and volunteer work) and then worked really hard to get good at this so called dream job. Then took a mini break to do more clinical work that would broaden my knowledge (midwifery).
I guess maybe I'd like to be a clinical educator. In ICU.
It seems good but the turnover seems a little high so I'm mildly apprehensive about if it is good or not.
Whats your favourite type of cuisine?
This has changed a lot too. In the past I probably would have said Indonesian.
Is desert a cuisine? lol cause literally that's me all over it. Don't care which country, in general if it's sweet I'm keen. Oh. especially if it's cake. I can take it or leave it with most others, but cake is just ... yeah. I'm snobby about my cake too btw. Ding dong's won't cut it. Though I have tried it.
But like, not too much of it because, health and teeth and all that.
What's your favourite childhood memory
Dunno. walking with my grandfather who can't speak english as a 5 year old, and we had our family dog with us because they were spraying insect poison at the house, and we were near a cricket pitch, and some man came to us and asked us if the dog dug a hole to ruin the pitch and my grandpa couldn't speak English and I was shy. I think I tried to say no, but I'm not sure if it came across and my grandpa looked at me and was like um, ??? and cause I don't speak Indonesian, we couldn't communicate properly.
And I don't know if this ever got looped properly when I got home but eventually we went home, and that was the end of that.
Now I'm furiously trying to learn Indonesian.
Yesterday I revised "rain" which is = Hujan.
And I had to relook that up. Sighs. It's an uphill battle.
Train is KERETA API. If you say kereta only it means "carriage".
What's your favourite movie and why?
FTF. Cause that sparked a whole new world of fanfiction and fandom and Just. Another world, for me.
What's your favourite family holiday tradition?
My father was always adamant we put up a Christmas tree. Even when he was blind and i was like, 30 he still wanted a damn tree.
So I'll go with that one.
What's your favourite family recipe
Italian butter cream coffee cake.
What's your favourite way to spend a weekend
Hum. This has changed over time.
When I was 20 I'd say this:
1. work a 12 hour shift on Saturday
2. DB race on the Sunday
or
an away DB race with pals, take the whole weekend off.
In my 30s I'd say this:
Hang out with the kids and Pete doing whatever. Watch a movie at home, go to the park and get some takeaway chippies or burger or whatever.
Do I enjoy what I do for a living
Yes and no.
I studied very hard in my science degree to see that it would likely get me nowhere in Australia without a Phd, which i would have been unfunded with and would also have to move overseas to get any sort of job related to what I worked/studied. So I pivoted to clinical work and chose nursing where I studied a moderate amount but worked very hard and did a lot of jobs trying to get a lot of experience because I thought that doing that would be more useful than book work (which I think is true, because nursing is like "learning common sense" which is hard to get from a page). I worked Assistant nurse roles at like, 3 or 4 hospitals. Sometimes, my day would be like this:
1. uni classes 11am til 4pm
2. dragon boat 6-7pm
3. shift at hospital 10-7am
go home and crash. Kid you not.
Now. 12 years later, I feel like I am mostly clinically competent but that the actual mental labour of the job wears me down. Evidence says one thing, but in practice we do it a different way. whats best for the patient? what's best for the woman. What is their experience of healthcare? Are we actually fixing anything?!
Don't think about it too hard, if you do your work in the moment, you help someone in some small way in JUST THAT MOMENT. Because there is very little continuity of care in midwifery and in nursing, if you work part time to prioritise family its the same.
It is a lot better if your full time in either profession to be hoonest. So Actually work would be more enjoyable if I did more hours. But currently I've chosen to prioritise my girls so. That's just how that goes.
What's a book you'd reccomend? I really enjoyed that one about the defector from North Korea, who now lives in NYC. That was eye opening.
In Order to Live: A North Korean Girl's Journey to Freedom
What's your dream job I got to my dream job really quick in my 20s (maybe partially because I looked so good on paper, science degree and volunteer work) and then worked really hard to get good at this so called dream job. Then took a mini break to do more clinical work that would broaden my knowledge (midwifery).
I guess maybe I'd like to be a clinical educator. In ICU.
It seems good but the turnover seems a little high so I'm mildly apprehensive about if it is good or not.
Whats your favourite type of cuisine?
This has changed a lot too. In the past I probably would have said Indonesian.
Is desert a cuisine? lol cause literally that's me all over it. Don't care which country, in general if it's sweet I'm keen. Oh. especially if it's cake. I can take it or leave it with most others, but cake is just ... yeah. I'm snobby about my cake too btw. Ding dong's won't cut it. Though I have tried it.
But like, not too much of it because, health and teeth and all that.
What's your favourite childhood memory
Dunno. walking with my grandfather who can't speak english as a 5 year old, and we had our family dog with us because they were spraying insect poison at the house, and we were near a cricket pitch, and some man came to us and asked us if the dog dug a hole to ruin the pitch and my grandpa couldn't speak English and I was shy. I think I tried to say no, but I'm not sure if it came across and my grandpa looked at me and was like um, ??? and cause I don't speak Indonesian, we couldn't communicate properly.
And I don't know if this ever got looped properly when I got home but eventually we went home, and that was the end of that.
Now I'm furiously trying to learn Indonesian.
Yesterday I revised "rain" which is = Hujan.
And I had to relook that up. Sighs. It's an uphill battle.
Train is KERETA API. If you say kereta only it means "carriage".
What's your favourite movie and why?
FTF. Cause that sparked a whole new world of fanfiction and fandom and Just. Another world, for me.
What's your favourite family holiday tradition?
My father was always adamant we put up a Christmas tree. Even when he was blind and i was like, 30 he still wanted a damn tree.
So I'll go with that one.
What's your favourite family recipe
Italian butter cream coffee cake.
