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whitewriter Many tears. But I'm over it now.
I wonder if other women go through a similar feeling when diagnosed with GDM- insulin x number of units.
It's the loss of only needing 2 scans and being happy go lucky to eat whatever one wants, whenever one feels like. Rather than having to think: "what time of day is it, which meal does this attribute to, how many carbs does it have, which type" and then the inevitable: can I actually eat it.
So the long list of things I already couldn't have, has just grown.
Then there's the trying to take the insulin at the same time every day. The recommended time is 22:00 but I'm usually in bed by 20:30. So after the first day, having it at 21:30-ish I've made it earlier the 2nd day because... I was tired and couldn't wait.
There's extra costs - I'm subsidised by the national diabetes service, but the strips and the insulin still cost money (not a lot).
Furthermore having a GDM diagnosis makes me not want to eat. I'm literally scared to eat cause, who wants high sugars? that and the specific diet means I've lost weight- judged based on my work uniform since that doesn't change size. Which I think is a good thing. It's definitely not more than 10% (danger zone) Cause the maternity pants were already getting tight way too early and now they're quite loose.
In any case there's a morphology scan on monday - and head circumference will be my main concern. I was reading (dangerous things to read ) that large head circumference this early on will stay throughout pregnancy, it won't change.- unlike abdominal circumference . I don't want to be scared into a cesarean at some ridiculously early time in the pregnancy.
I wonder if other women go through a similar feeling when diagnosed with GDM- insulin x number of units.
It's the loss of only needing 2 scans and being happy go lucky to eat whatever one wants, whenever one feels like. Rather than having to think: "what time of day is it, which meal does this attribute to, how many carbs does it have, which type" and then the inevitable: can I actually eat it.
So the long list of things I already couldn't have, has just grown.
Then there's the trying to take the insulin at the same time every day. The recommended time is 22:00 but I'm usually in bed by 20:30. So after the first day, having it at 21:30-ish I've made it earlier the 2nd day because... I was tired and couldn't wait.
There's extra costs - I'm subsidised by the national diabetes service, but the strips and the insulin still cost money (not a lot).
Furthermore having a GDM diagnosis makes me not want to eat. I'm literally scared to eat cause, who wants high sugars? that and the specific diet means I've lost weight- judged based on my work uniform since that doesn't change size. Which I think is a good thing. It's definitely not more than 10% (danger zone) Cause the maternity pants were already getting tight way too early and now they're quite loose.
In any case there's a morphology scan on monday - and head circumference will be my main concern. I was reading (dangerous things to read ) that large head circumference this early on will stay throughout pregnancy, it won't change.- unlike abdominal circumference . I don't want to be scared into a cesarean at some ridiculously early time in the pregnancy.
