"Pauline"

In ICU I often have time to write at least the bare bones or even, the whole damn post during shift. Therefore all I have to do is come home and copy and paste it out of my draft inbox. However when I'm doing a shift in midwifery, I rarely have the time to do more than eat or go to the toilet- or ruminate about if I'm doing the best for my woman: or think hard about if I'm missing something.

The start of my shift today was me chatting to Nicole about her morning and her lady - who said she thought would be "Easy" and I should "definitely have her". I informed Nicole that casuals rarely got "the good women". We either get what nobody wants or the least likely to have problems(wardables, confused pt etc.). Or at least in ICU that's how casuals are treated. I half expected to be allocated the woman of the private doctor (I have very little experience working with the privates so this would not have been a fun shift).

I wanted to go to MAC but someone had already arranged to go there and so instead : I got Nicole's lady! Lucky me.


( So I enter the nightclub )

I feel like a fraud of a midwife when the baby has just literally, fallen out of a woman without a single push.

The CME did mention this would happen in the past when they had much denser epidurals than we typically use now.